THE PAST DOES NOT HAVE TO DEFINE YOU. IT CAN PROPEL YOU TOWARDS GREATNESS AND ACHIEVING YOUR DREAMS4/18/2018 The picture I chose for this blog is not one to represent a traveling piece. No, this is so much more meaningful to me. I hope that after reading, you will feel hope, inspiration, and acceptance of who you are. With the right tools, anything is possible. As a child, I dreamed big. I have always had an adventurous spirit. Since the age of 9, I had my sites set on traveling to Italy one day. I learned about the culture and the beauty. I was intrigued by the language and the cuisine. However, despite my ambitiousness, my childhood was riddled with pain, uncertainty, emotional, and physical abuse. The words "you are not enough" was ingrained in my soul. I was told I was't going to be anything, I wasn't special, and my dreams couldn't be a reality for me. This beautiful destination, among other things I wanted for myself were slowly suppressed. The negative words spoken, set me on a path of constantly trying to "prove" myself in every area of my life. For me, life was a struggle in every aspect. I struggled financially, I critiqued my looks and demanded perfection of myself. Despite achievements and compliments, I was never satisfied. Despite moving far away, abuse in my life kept presenting itself. I attempted to remedy this by partying it away or even praying it away. I tried to "fake it until I made it", though those nagging thoughts and feelings were still beneath the mask. I immersed myself in hobbies and tasks, reading one self-improvement book after the next to no avail. Many of the books and advice I was given centered around the common theme of loving oneself. Another statement that kept showing up was "forgive others." Both aspects I not only struggled with and resisted, I had no idea how to truly feel it and actually accomplish this. The best way I could describe how I felt is if I was standing at a door. In front of me was a huge pile of keys. One of these keys would unlock the door. If I found the match, I would leave bondage and imprisonment behind. On the other side was freedom. Freedom from obsessively looking at myself and criticizing my every flaw or wrinkle. Freedom from comparing myself to every woman in my vicinity. I wanted to find the key to releasing me from the feeling of having to go above and beyond and still not measuring up. Most of all, I wanted the chains of my pain, resentment, and unforgiveness to be broken. I wanted to be and feel like I was "enough". I didn't want a negative comment, or someone else's mood to dictate mine. At some point I said to myself "I don't want this, but I know I am attracting this some how". After failed relationships, three children, and a marriage on the rocks, I was desperate and hungry for change. I continued trying to find the key that fit, I came across EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) which helps you to tap on certain areas of your body, while saying how you truly feel about anything that particular moment, or from events from the past. This has been one of my arsenals for transformation. I will be posting videos at a later time where I demonstrate this. Below I will list what tools and practices I have adapted that ultimately changed my life. Now back to this picture I decided to use. This is an image of the Towers Hotel Stabiae on the Sorrento Coast of Italy. I will be venturing there in a matter of weeks, as well as Rome! I have also been learning the language. My dreams are coming true. I am kinder to myself and I tap on my fears and persevere. I am a woman who take chances. I am a writer, which has always been a passion of mine. I am going to school for business, which was very intimidating to me. The most beautiful part of it all, is that I am not doing these things to prove myself to anyone. I am enough for me. That love and approval I was seeking outwardly, has now been fulfilled inwardly. I can shine and enjoy even the little moments. I can transmit love to others. My past has helped me to become this amazing person. Here are the following tools and practices I use to overcome challenges:
We all go through life and get wounded along the way. If we allow it, those wounds will close and a scar will remain. That doesn't make you any less beautiful. It gives you your uniqueness and character.
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AuthorMichelle Miah is a feisty and vibrant 34 year old woman who currently resides in Missouri. She has worn many titles in her life to include being a Veteran, Physical Therapist Assistant, and an exercise enthusiast. She prides herself on being a wife, mother, and student of life. ArchivesCategories |